Birthdays

Today is my little sister and brother's birthday. They are twins, turning 26 today. My sister is my best friend even though there is a ten year age gap between us. She's one of the only people in the world I know I could say anything to without facing judgement. I wish I was closer to my brother. I should try harder. He's had a rough life and many things have led to us being estranged, but when we were much younger he was my baby boy. I miss that. They are both married, my brother has a step-daughter. My sister and her husband are newly "trying". I hope to have a niece or nephew very soon. I think a baby in my life would be a good thing. Though I'm worried about how my sister and I will stay close during the whole process. I hope we do.

Outside in Shorts

In order to complete an OCD ritual, I put on my shoes with no socks and walked to the corner in shorts and a t-shirt in order to look at some random guy while thinking the right thought. Sounds insane, right? It is.

We have an insurance adjuster coming to inspect so we're all cleaning today. I picked the kitchen. I hate doing dishes, but I also hate cleaning the bathroom. For some reason, Richard seems to think he's exempt from the bathroom.

Wrote a post today. Entered some sweepstakes. I finished binge watching the show The Wire last night so now I have the extra fun task of picking a new show and hopefully liking it.

I spend entirely too much time watching tv. But what else does a homebound person with crippling OCD do?

~Billie

No Promises

I make no promises as to how often I'll write here. I need a place to vent, whine, bitch, complain, laugh, share. Maybe it'll help me get through this mess of a life I've created for myself.

~Billie